Since the end of July I've been spiraling into a unknown I'm not happy about. The way I've been treating myself and my mind is incomprehensible. If what I was doing to myself I had been doing to another, it probably would have been considered abuse.
So today, after spending much of the night laying awake reflecting on the last month, I have decided,; ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.
I am tired of not being important enough. Not being important enough to myself and not being important enough to stand up for what I believe in and for my feelings. I'm tired of giving my all as far as the weight loss and then not seeing results and then giving up on myself after a few weeks. I'm done playing that game. I'm tired of being fat. I'm tired of not wearing what I want. As stupid as this sounds, I'm tired of not getting second looks when I enter a room. I know that sounds incredibly vain but when they used to come and now they don't...
I'm tired of not feeling sexy when I get up in the morning and get ready. Tired of not caring if and when I roll out of bed. Overall, I'm just tired...
Tomorrow is the beginning of a new me. Diet, exercise, self-love...
It's happening.
World, you better WATCH OUT!
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